Salem, Mass.

So, needless to say - this trip to Salem, Mass was LONG awaited and soo worth it! My boyfriend, his mother, and I took off early Saturday morning to get a little taste of be-witching! :) I have been reading for the last year several books about the Salem Witch Trials and the overall sociology of witchcraft in general, from a historical standpoint - not present day practice. The trip was amazing and we got to do the typical tourist stuff such as seeing The House of Seven Gables, and the basic Salem area of the dungeon museum, the witchcraft museum, the town square, and all the old buildings and some awesome shops! We also go to eat at their brew factory where we had a delicious pumpkin ale rimmed with cinnamon and sugar - delishhh! We could not really complain about the food there. All of the local restaurants were great! Salem (from a historical or predisposed stand-point) was a little bit too modern to me - I was hoping they would have preserved more - but I know it's been 300 years so I'm trying to be realistic! So - that was a little disappointing - but still awesome! They also had a bizarre/fair going on which was cool!

I did not get to see the old Salem jail or Gallow Hill so that will be for next time! I am already talking about November of THIS year :). We also got to stop in the Boston Harbor on the way home so Eric could see the USS Constitution and the Cassin Young! It was pretty remarkable!

MORE exciting - we got to go on a paranormal investigation trip (Paranormal Salem) and actually use and handle all the equipment from 12am-2am through historic Salem (the actual haunted spots, not the re-creations!) It was SO creepy! If you check out my Facebook, you will see all the pictures and the distortions in the pictures that are believed to be from paranormal activity! There are blemishes and orbs and such which have no reason to be there other than the spooky! :) I got to use the EMF machine, but there were also pendelums and rods as well! It was so awesome and we had a small intimate group of 7 so that was great! We had some awesome encounters and some crazy things happen and overall it was the BEST part of the trip! I would definatly go back to Salem/live there! :) Crazy stuff.. but too much to blog about :)

The only thing that pissed me off was booking the Hilton! Okay.. so we get to the Hilton having booked two queen beds for our stay because we knew we'd barely be in the room... just enough to sleep, shower, and run. So, we check in - and this idiot says, "we have a king size and can give you a roll away cot," ... OKAY - did I miss something? WHAT THE F* ARE RESERVATIONS FOR if you are just going to give me something else anyway? I said, absolutely not! We would like two full-size beds! We did not travel 5 hours to sleep on a damn cot! Suddenly... something became available. How convenient! But nothing pisses me off more than reserving something - only to get something else. What the hell are reservations worth now-a-days!! I guess only as good as the company who you make them with! Needless to say I filled out the survey quite nicely ;)

Last night was the blood moon/hunter's moon.... Halloween is coming :)

will write more soon.. :D

did I miss something? or did you miss me? :)

Okay, so as some of you may know I am addicted to PINTEREST for about the last year. AND now that it's becoming popular it's even MORE fun because so many creative ideas are bouncing around! However, I saw a ROLO Cupcake on there today. A few weeks ago, I also saw a ROLO shake at McDonalds. Did I miss something about ROLO's?! I mean, I always thought they were kind of a second rate candy that no one really liked, a little too chewy and lacking a certain "umph" in their chocolate. Did I miss the boat on ROLO?

P.S. - Fall Jamboree in Sterling, NY was so cute. Sterling is amazing. <3

Also - I wanted to shout out to some cool peeps from Planned Parenthood who are my co-workers because I went to an awesome "seminar" on Transgender living which was something I did not know much about. However open and crazy and out-going and accepting I am, there are still things in which I have not explored in such great depth in my life and it was super eye opening and amazing and very informative and I think it takes SUPER guts to put yourself out there on a personal level. I know when I would present on my eating disorder and past/present struggle and the spectrum in which I've survived it was always nerve-racking BUT none the less - a huge part of my story, which made up WHO I AM! So, props to the homies at PPH!

Also, I would like to CLARIFY that Fall/Autumn is not official until September 23rd when the Autumnal Equinox comes into swing. I am annoyed with everyone "LOVING THE FALL" when it's not even fucking here yet! GRR. (that's my OCD).

On another side note, I swear to Nature that I am going to start posting/blogging every day because too many people write me saying they miss my old blog which was shut down! I guess people liked my money saving tips and cleaning tips? Ok- no big :) I shall make time!

Also, my amazing boyfriend has now found a game on his phone where he bowhunts for rabbits and it is consuming the better half of his days. :) it's pretty cute!

xoxo. Sarah

she flies with her own wings.

photo by: me -- a rainy drowning little heartbeat

down the road.

Obviously I've had Kenny Chesney - Down the Road in my head ALL day! I love it.

Anyway, I've about had enough of "friends" utilizing me for THEIR benefit and then when I need someone to talk to they are NO WHERE TO BE FOUND. How flipping convenient! That's called selfish and makes me want to punch bitches in the face. I mean, HONESTLY!

It's similar to religion in that ... do you only call on God or pray to him when you need something? (probably, cause you're selfish) but that's NOT how it's supposed to be. You are supposed to be there for good and bad; to laugh, cry, etc. Real friends share everything, not just what's needed. Frankly, I've had enough of people only calling/texting/talking to me when they are in need of someone support but then offer me nothing else at any other point in time. EFF YERSELF.

I'm to the point where I've come to realize that I cannot have the mouth or temper that I had before, and that my father's death really made me humble and quiet - but I'm about to lose my patience and revert back to the old maniac that I used to be and just start losing my biscuits on everyone and punching people in the face!

So, I suppose I should pray for MYSELF. and for your stupidity/selfishness.

Thanks :)

947 County Route 26

Tonight I'm in awe of how much I am missing the house that I grew up in. In short, when my father died, our house was far too big for my mother and I (or my mother alone once I moved on and found love) to really take care of ourselves. So, in essence - we sold "The House That Built Me". I am torn by the feelings I posess regarding this house. I miss this house, this location, the memories, the smell of the woods and the pond, and the air... I miss the sound of freedom all around me as 60 acres of serenity draped around us for our taking. However, I'm finding that I need to realize that I miss what that house WAS. I miss the memories. I miss the memories I made in that house, that I have to cherish from that house and I miss what that house WAS when my Dad was alive. Really, after my Dad died, that house was nothing but a dwelling. It was no longer a home without it's sole proprietor. It was a vacant cell, a dormant heart. I still own 10 acres of that land, which I hope to someday develop into a place I can frequent to revisit my Dad and his "spirit" which I'm sure still dwells in those same trees encompassing his dreams and all that he built. I guess that, sometimes I cannot even believe he's gone - and therefore can't really believe ALL the loss that I've endured since the loss of my father - as it seems to become a ripple effect. I can't help but listen to "The House That Built Me" by Miranda Lambert and just totally lose my biscuits; especially now with Jeff gone. But, I know that this is my time now to live for and through my father and become all that I can. I guess I mostly get so mad because I see people so often mistreat their parents, hate their parents, never care to even call or see their parents - and my family is/was my world! My dad was the center in which I spun. It makes me sick..

It seems that some days are just harder than others..

"Real loss only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself." - Good Will Hunting

lack of motivation

I have not blogged since December. I am irresponsible. But I need to take this time to "live-journal" and express myself because being expressive is a big healing piece for me. So, count on this blog being active again! Every day I will write my daily stories, as well as photograph inspirations, annoyances, dreams, etc. The randomness of life is too be enjoyed! :)

Truth in fortune cookies...

So, I spent a lot of time today thinking about how truthful people really are about the things that really matter. Not petty white lies, not little fibs, but really who they are in their soul, their entire being, and why this matters that these ideals be somewhat concrete. Anyway... I wrapped Christmas presents for the majority of the night (after Christmas shopping with Eric begging for the Hello Kitty karaoke machine WHICH by the way has a built in video camera so you can "watch yourself be a star") I came up to get ready for bed and check Facebook and saw two fortune's I had saved on my desk. The fortunes read as follows:


"If I bring what is inside me, what I bring forth will save me." 
                ... and ... 
"A clever crow will always paint its feather black" 
              -- Thus, confirming the basis of my thoughts today about being yourself, being real, and being true to who you are, what you feel in your heart, and what makes your heart buzz. In a sense, a clever crow will always paint its feather black because that in fact, is just what it is: black. It will never try to be something different. Thus the moral of the story.. I mean, people spend their whole lives searching for their penguin, that one penguin they continuously come back to no matter what -- don't deny or be ashamed of who you are because everyone has a penguin.


It's time for bed. I have training for work in the AM and more Wicca books to read because I have been told to research due to my "natural lifestyle" and fascination with the Salem Witch Trials... it's been my new rage & apparently my new joy... but I wanted to share my fortune cookies with you and the simplicity of truth in small packages. 


xoxo. :o)

Inspirations, Latelys, and things I love..

So lately on Etsy.com I came across the re-invention (or re-introduction?) of the SCOODIE! aka: the scarf hoodie. I ordered one from Glamour Damaged and am absolutely IN LOVE! It's fabulous! Also, I have been strangely into the Russian Dolls (you know, where the little baby ones fit inside each other and you can tuck them all away). Also, I received a babycake cupcake maker for my birthday & absolutely loved that - best present ever! The movie Closer always inspires me, but I am excited that I got all the Twilight Saga DVD's and extra behind the scenes under my belt too. I also got the Fujifilm Mini 7, so now Polaroids have become a new favorite/class spin. I also would like a sugar-glider and a micro mini piggie for a new pet. :)  Taylor Swift's new album has also been quite "enchanting" in planning my dream wedding of a themed "secret garden/enchanted fairyland" theme. haha. Dreams.