It's beginning to look a lot of like... Christmas?

Christmas is creeping at a mere 5 days away, and things just aren't seeming as they used to. It is now year three that Christmas is coming in and year three that I will be spending it without my father. In general, every day sucks without my father, a man who I cannot even believe I have survived this long without - but at Christmas it always seems worse. My dad lived for Christmas and stellar surprises that would blow everyone's mind. That's just the kind of person he was! I miss those times, but cherish them simultaneously with the pain & sorrow. I think I'm done Christmas shopping? However, I get run down by the last minute shopping and impulsive buys that I "have to have" because I think the person will love (at the last minute)! Does this happen often? Any-who, I'm back to blogging to create a sort of self-centered therapy for my soul and see what we all have to offer here. I think Christmas really makes you realize who people REALLY are. In general, that will lead to my next blog about who people really are, who we thought people were, and my thoughts on friendships in general. The hustle & bustle of the holidays really brings out the "best" in people. It's quite interesting. You either find total generosity or misery!